THURSDAY, March 5

For to those who have, more will be given; and from those who have nothing, even what they have will be taken away.

— Mark 4:25

Jesus presents three more parables to his disciples in this passage, which follows the Parable of the Sower in the Gospel of Mark. This verse from the first parable used to be very confusing to me. It seems to be in direct opposition to the ideals in the Magnificat and other Scriptures, where God promises to cast down the mighty from their thrones and satisfy the poor. I wondered why God would take from those who have little.

By the time I entered the Convent at age 46, I had spent an entire lifetime praying, worshiping and studying Scripture. I knew that I still had a lot to learn from a scholarly and theological perspective, but I thought my prayer life was full to the brim. God would soon show me that I was wrong.

My Novice Director, Sister Barbara Jean, told me that I had much to learn about prayer. “But how could that be?” I asked, “I have prayed in every possible way, and I am as close to God as I’ll ever be.” In spite of my smug pronouncements, she insisted that I take prayer classes with various Sisters. I thought it would be a waste of time.

My devotion was deep and had expanded steadily over nearly five decades, but the more I learned, the more I realized I still had light-years to travel in the realm of prayer. I had thought there was a list of standard ways to pray, but my Sisters taught me that there are infinite ways of praying. Listening to music, making art and even knitting can be prayer if they are approached intentionally. Anything that brings us closer to God is prayer. I never knew that.

I also learned that the closeness I felt with God was fairly superficial. The years I have spent in prayer at the Convent have deepened that closeness and taught me that there is no limit to the depths of a relationship with God. I could pray for a lifetime and still grow closer every day.

Jesus’ words show us that the more we pray, worship and learn, the more we will be given. God’s love is infinite, and we can journey into that love, closer and closer, for eternity.

Reflect: What things bring you closer to God? Do you feel that you can go deeper into your prayer life?

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WEDNESDAY, March 4

He began to teach them many things in parables, and in his teaching he said to them: “Listen! A sower went out to sow. And as he sowed, some seed fell on the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Other seed fell on rocky ground, where it did not have much soil, and it sprang up quickly, since it had no depth of soil. And when the sun rose, it was scorched; and since it had no root, it withered away. Other seed fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked it, and it yielded no grain. Other seed fell into good soil and brought forth grain, growing up and increasing and yielding thirty and sixty and a hundredfold.”

— Mark 4:2-8

As a child growing up in a Baptist church, I heard this story often. The Parable of the Sower was a favorite of our preacher, and it made such an impression on me that I still think of it quite often. Our preacher used this parable to guide the congregation in their efforts at evangelism. As good Baptists, we were all expected to proclaim the Good News of Jesus Christ to everyone we encountered. Many of us, though, came to realize that not everyone is eager to hear the Good News. Our seatmate on a flight from New York to Atlanta might sigh and roll their eyes at the first utterance of the word “Jesus.” Others might hastily put on their headphones to block out the noise of what they perceived as “Bible thumping.”

Even when I worked at the Church of St. Mary the Virgin in New York City, I made errors in our ministry to the unhoused people who slept on our pews every day. When I first started handing out toiletry bags to them, I came up with what I thought was a very holy and edifying booklet containing carefully chosen prayers and readings. Every day, I would find those booklets strewn under the pews or crumpled up in the side aisles. These people, I realized, didn’t need words on paper. They needed me to show them the love of Christ by being compassionate toward them. Over the next few years, they taught me a great deal about evangelism.

The different areas Jesus describes in the parable represent the various kinds of responses to our proclamation of the Good News. Some people are like good soil, eager to learn and grow their faith abundantly, then germinate that faith in the world. Others are not as receptive, and they only receive the Good News temporarily before they are distracted away from it. Still others are closed off and unlikely to receive Christ’s message at all. It takes a unique level of compassion to share the Gospel in a way that draws others in rather than drives them away.

Reflect: How might you share the Gospel in ways that feel welcoming and meaningful?

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TUESDAY, March 3

Then he went home; and the crowd came together again, so that they could not even eat. When his family heard it, they went out to restrain him, for people were saying, “He has gone out of his mind.” And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem said, “He has Beelzebul, and by the ruler of the demons he casts out demons.”

— Mark 3:19b-22

These passages from the Gospel of Mark can be quite confusing. Jesus’ followers are so numerous that he and the disciples can’t even eat. His family members say that he has lost his mind. Then the teachers from Jerusalem accuse him of serving Beelzebub, the prince of demons.

This scenario brings to mind the chaotic lives of modern celebrities, who are hounded by so many people that they often hire bodyguards and live in seclusion.

Jesus’ family and friends claiming, “he has gone out of his mind,” doesn’t seem very supportive, but is there a possibility they were trying to protect him from the authorities? They knew that Jesus’ claim to be the Son of Man might get him arrested and executed. Is it possible they were trying to save him by claiming he knew not what he said?

Jesus doesn’t flee to safety, though. He instead uses the situation to teach the radical, revolutionary idea that all of humankind is one family—God’s family. To Jesus, there is no separation of family, tribe, race or nation.

I often wish that all the faiths could merge into one, and that we would all become one enormous, loving family. We would cease to oppress “them” to protect “us,” and instead all work together in kindness and love. In my spiritual practice of the fearless and searching moral inventory, I am aware that I constantly need to examine any biases I may have toward others. I work hard to educate myself on how to be an effective advocate and ally, rather than assuming I am completely unbiased.

Reflect: Do you ever look at another group of people as “them” and harbor feelings of fear or resentment toward them? How might you pray to respond with love and kindness?

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MONDAY, March 2

He told his disciples to have a boat ready for him because of the crowd, so that they would not crush him; for he had cured many, so that all who had diseases pressed upon him to touch him.

— Mark 3:9-10

“You need to learn to delegate!” is a refrain I hear all the time as the Sister Superior of the Community of St. John Baptist. My Sisters constantly remind me that I need to give parts of my workload to them, our staff members, our Associates or our Oblates. It is not easy for me to delegate because I always think I’m the only one who can do things “correctly.” My Sisters’ persistence reminds me that not only do I need to reduce my workload, but I also need to remember that I am not alone.

In this passage from the Gospel of Mark, we see Jesus doing some delegating. Word of Jesus’ miraculous healing power has spread so quickly that he tells the disciples to arrange a boat “so that they would not crush him.” He then goes up a mountain, calls twelve of his disciples to him and appoints them as apostles to preach the Good News and cast out demons.

You may wonder: why would Jesus, the incarnation of God Almighty, need to delegate? As an omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient being, God can do anything. Why would God need help? Jesus shows us, in choosing his apostles, that God has no intention of operating alone.

Jesus does not “need” us but instead wants us to be active participants in building the Kingdom of God. If we want things to change, we have to be agents of that change. God shows us the value and holiness of community and relationship through Jesus’ ministry on earth. Jesus was never a lone ruler dictating from above. He shows us that we must work as a community.

Reflect: Where in your life could you benefit from working within a group instead of going it alone?

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SATURDAY, February 28

Then he said to them, “The sabbath was made for humankind, and not humankind for the sabbath; so the Son of Man is lord even of the sabbath.”

— Mark 2:27

In religious life, we have a saying: “Charity overrules the Rule.” It means that sometimes we have to break our own strict Rule and Customary to follow the primary commandment of God to love our neighbor. If a visitor rings the doorbell when we’re in chapel, I can go down to greet that person. If I am visiting someone in the hospital or comforting someone in grief, I am automatically excused from chapel. I am a rule follower, but it’s nice to know that rules can be broken in the name of charity, our greatest grace.

In the Gospel text for today, the Pharisees disapprove of Jesus and his disciples for picking heads of grain on the sabbath, and in another incident, they watch him to see if he would heal a man on the sabbath. The Pharisees are committed to upholding the Law so that the Jewish people will be in a right relationship with God, who has commanded his chosen people to rest on the sabbath and refrain from doing any work.

Jesus, however, does not see feeding his disciples or healing a man as work. He sees these things as acts of mercy. He also becomes angry in the synagogue and asks, “Is it lawful to do good or to do harm on the sabbath, to save life or to kill?” (Mark 3:4). The Pharisees remain silent. In the grain fields, he tells them that the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath, which in modern parlance basically means “Hey, I’m God, so I made that rule. I know exactly how to interpret it, and you don’t.”

These incidents also point to a much broader meaning beyond these confrontations. Jesus flips the script, emphasizing the inner motivations of the heart over an outward adherence to the Law.

Reflect: What type of things get in the way of truly loving your neighbor?

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FRIDAY, February 27

When Jesus heard this, he said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick; I have come to call not the righteous but sinners.”

— Mark 2:17

One of my favorite bits of wisdom is: “The church is not a museum for saints. It is a hospital for sinners.” This aphorism Reflects Jesus’ ministry on earth, in which he confounded all the religious leaders by spending his time with sinners and outcasts.

Tax collectors in Jesus’ time were deeply reviled by the Jewish people. They were Jews who had betrayed their own people to work for the oppressive Roman Empire. Their sin was compounded by extracting huge sums of money and taking an additional percentage to line their own pockets.

Jesus regularly dined with these traitors and with many others who were considered a threat to their way of life. Law, order and separateness were deeply ingrained values in the Jewish culture. Why would Jesus, who claimed to be God incarnate, want anything to do with them?

In ministering to both the righteous and the sinners, Jesus shows us something about the nature of God. The love of God is not something to be reserved only for those who walk the narrow way and follow all the rules. It is equally given to everyone, no matter what they have done.

I once visited a house in Bristol, England, where female sex workers could find refuge from their tumultuous world. The house provided a therapeutic environment, medical care and a daily meal for the women and staff. When my fellow Sister and I sat down to the meal, one of the women off the street said in her delightful accent, “Well, look at me sittin’ among the holy!” I turned to her and said, “You are holy, too. We are all holy, and God loves every one of us.” She looked stunned, then let out a laugh and pointed all around the table, saying, “Look at all of you! You’re all holy, too!”

God incarnate came to earth and dined with sinners and showed us very clearly that we are all loved, and that none of us is a lost cause. Jesus can redeem us all, even if we believe we are irredeemable.

Reflect: Can you imagine God loving someone whom you consider to be evil or unredeemable? Can you imagine that God loves you and that person equally?

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THURSDAY, February 26

At once Jesus perceived in his spirit that they were discussing these questions among themselves; and he said to them, “Why do you raise such questions in your hearts? Which is easier, to say to the paralytic, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Stand up and take your mat and walk’? But so that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins” — he said to the paralytic — “I say to you, stand up, take your mat and go to your home.”

— Mark 2:8-11

The story of the paralyzed man who is lowered through the roof by his four friends, then forgiven and healed by Jesus, is one of my favorite things to visualize in my prayer time. At this point in Mark, Jesus’ ministry has begun to attract large crowds, so the house where he is teaching is packed with people. The four friends who carry the paralyzed man to the house have so much faith in Jesus’ healing powers that they are not daunted by the crowd. They accomplish a near-impossible feat to get him into the presence of this man they have heard of—a man who performs miracles.

But Jesus doesn’t heal the paralyzed man right away. He first forgives the man’s sins. The teachers of the Law who see this think to themselves that this is blasphemy because only God can forgive sin. I am sure they were astonished when Jesus knew exactly what they were thinking. He explains his actions so that they “may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.”

Then, Jesus heals the paralyzed man. All the people packed into the house see Jesus tell the man to get up, take his mat and walk. This is another wonderful moment to visualize in our prayer time. How would we feel if we were to witness such a thing take place? A man the townspeople know to be paralyzed suddenly stands and walks in full view of everyone. They cannot dismiss it as trickery. This is a miracle.

The suffering of the world is so immense that many turn away from it, thinking they do not have the power to help. Episcopal Relief & Development, along with other nonprofit organizations like it, is a witness to miracles. It may seem unrealistic to believe that enough donations can be gathered and enough programs launched to make a real difference in a world broken by injustice, but when we work together with Christ, we draw from an infinite well of miraculous healing.

Reflect: A question to ask God in your prayer life: Why did Jesus forgive the man’s sins in addition to healing him?

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WEDNESDAY, February 25

That evening, at sunset, they brought to him all who were sick or possessed by demons. And the whole city was gathered around the door. And he cured many who were sick with various diseases, and cast out many demons; and he would not permit the demons to speak, because they knew him.

— Mark 1:32-34

Jesus’ ministry gains momentum as word of his miracles begins to spread. He visits the home of Simon and Andrew and heals Simon’s mother-in-law. Then he heals many townspeople and casts out demons. He then sets out early the next morning and goes to a solitary place to pray.

Once again, we can see Jesus’ time of prayer as a lesson to us. After a busy time of healing and teaching, he takes a break to pray. Any of us who serve the church, from volunteer to bishop, are aware that a pattern of busyness and rest is crucial to preserving our energy and avoiding burnout. In convents and monasteries, we balance our work time and our prayer time throughout the day, every day. If we are in the middle of a work project and the bell rings for chapel, we drop everything to go and pray. In secular work, you might put in your allotted hours and engage in prayer time outside your work hours. Monastics are taught that prayer is our work. Praying, in religious life, is our number one priority. This communal prayer time is sometimes referred to as the Daily Office, or daily work.

I am very much aware that if my work in the Convent were not punctuated by prayer at regular intervals, I would not have the strength to do my ministry. Prayer is a deep well from which I constantly draw nourishment and wisdom.

Reflect: Do you pause for prayer during your workday? How can you create a holy habit of “touching base” with God on a daily basis?

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TUESDAY, February 24

Jesus rebuked him, saying, “Be silent, and come out of him!” And the unclean spirit, convulsing him and crying with a loud voice, came out of him. They were all amazed, and they kept on asking one another, “What is this? A new teaching—with authority! He commands even the unclean spirits, and they obey him.” At once his fame began to spread throughout the surrounding region of Galilee.

— Mark 1:25-28

In today’s passage from the Gospel of Mark, Jesus begins his earthly ministry by calling Simon, Andrew, James and John to follow him. They leave their families and their livelihood behind and go with Jesus to Capernaum, where he teaches in the synagogue and drives out an unclean spirit from a man.

I always wonder what it was that Simon, Andrew, James and John saw in Jesus that made them give up everything to follow him. In religious life, we also give up all we possess to devote our lives to Jesus, but our choice is made because we already know Jesus. We know of his divinity and miracles, and we know his teachings. We feel secure in following the one whom we know to be the Messiah. Those first apostles knew none of these things, and yet they chose to follow this gentle teacher whose very presence was powerful enough to draw them into his ministry.

The four fishermen may have thought that following Jesus would be a temporary thing, or they may have had a few doubts as they set out for Capernaum, but their doubts were probably dispelled as they heard the brilliance of his teaching in the synagogue. Their faith must surely have taken deep, permanent root when they witnessed Jesus casting out the unclean spirit. Maybe they were not at all sure until they heard the spirit proclaim, “I know who you are, the Holy One of God!”

Reflect: What was it that made you realize Jesus is the Holy One of God? Was it something you were taught, or was it an experience?

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MONDAY, February 23

The Spirit immediately drove him out into the wilderness. He was in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan; and he was with the wild beasts, and the angels waited on him.

— Mark 1:12-13

Today’s Evening Prayer reading from the Gospel of Mark presents a brief description of John the Baptist, the Baptism of Jesus by John and Jesus being sent into the wilderness for forty days. This is the part of Jesus’ story that the church remembers each year during the forty days of Lent.

We know from the other Gospels that John the Baptist lived in the desert and survived on a meager diet of locusts and wild honey. Mark says that John “appeared in the wilderness.” We can surmise that both John and Jesus willingly submitted to this life of hardship in an extremely hostile environment to strengthen their relationship with God.

The forty days of Lent are a time of fasting and repentance when we practice our modern versions of this desert hardship by shedding tangible things or ideas that we hold dear. But why must we willingly submit to hardship to grow closer to God? In religious communities, we take vows of Poverty, Chastity and Obedience. The vow of Poverty is often misconstrued by the public to mean deprivation and misery. Thankfully, that is not the case. We Sisters live out the vow of Poverty by removing anything that might distract us from God. We do not have our own bank accounts, we wear a habit every day and we regard everything in the Convent as “ours” and not “mine.” We voluntarily give up marriage and children to spend more of our time with God, and for us, this act of sacrifice brings tremendous joy.

I once saw an addiction counselor on television who described sobriety as being “harder, but better.” The Way of the Cross is harder, but it is far, far better than any other way.

Reflect: What are the things that distract you from God? What spiritual practices and holy habits bring you closer?

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SATURDAY, February 21

I ask not only on behalf of these, but also on behalf of those who will believe in me through their word, that they may all be one. As you, Father, are in me and I am in you.

— John 17:20-21a

In this text, Jesus continues his prayer, the longest of all his prayers in the Gospels, and asks God for an intimate closeness between him and all believers “that they may all be one.” It is always fascinating to me that in that time and place, the Messiah did not come as a king or a great warrior. He didn’t speak of power and war and the conquering of enemies. He came to earth as a poor man who spoke about compassion and relationship, which are things modern minds find familiar, but ancient minds may have found confusing. If this Messiah has come to save us, they may have thought, then how does he expect to overthrow the Roman Empire with only talk of love and connection?

In 2001, the Community of St. John Baptist helped found an orphanage in Cameroon, West Africa, called the Good Shepherd Home. The motto of the home, which cares for more than a hundred children on a regular basis, is “May we all be one.” You can see that motto all around the home on plaques and painted on walls. A sign above the main door features these words with a painting of Jesus holding little children on his lap.

Jesus’ prayer shows us what God wants from us. His words and actions in the Gospels make it clear that God yearns for us to live in peace as one human family, loving one another as he loves us. Episcopal Relief & Development’s work is grounded in interfaith and intercultural collaboration. They work with core Episcopal and Anglican partners, in addition to other faith-based and secular partners, using an approach that is grounded in compassion and respectful of the dignity of all human beings. Transcending theological and political differences builds a stronger force of change than division and exclusion ever could.

Reflect: Can you picture a world in which divisions have ceased and we consider every human to be our family member?

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FRIDAY, February 20

I am not asking you to take them out of the world, but I ask you to protect them from the evil one. They do not belong to the world, just as I do not belong to the world. Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth. As you have sent me into the world, so I have sent them into the world. And for their sakes I sanctify myself, so that they also may be sanctified in truth.

— John 17:15-19

The reading for Evening Prayer today continues Jesus’ prayer after the Last Supper. He is preparing his disciples for his death and resurrection, and he asks God to protect them after he returns to the Father. Their faith in Jesus is a dangerous thing. In their willingness to continue his ministry, they might face imprisonment, torture or death.

So why do they continue to follow Jesus?

Why did so many believers in the early church choose the road that often led to their own death? Why did they bring their friends, their family and even their children into a movement that risked retaliation from the murderous oppression of the Roman Empire?

Why do we continue to believe, after more than 2,000 years?

Why did I choose to follow God in a secular society where it’s considered “ignorant” or “backward” to be religious? Why did I risk ridicule and humiliation by being a churchgoer while working in Hollywood and being surrounded by non-believers? Why didn’t I choose the easy route of shunning religion in order to fit in with the “cool” people?

I believe we are called to continue Jesus’ work for the same reason the early believers did: we have encountered Jesus, and we have seen the truth. We have experienced the vast, infinite love of God in our own lives, and we are willing to make sacrifices to live as God wills us to live.

Reflect: What are some reasons that you follow Christ? What are some sacrifices you have made to be a follower of Christ? Are there sacrifices ahead?

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THURSDAY, February 19

I glorified you on earth by finishing the work that you gave me to do. So now, Father, glorify me in your own presence with the glory that I had in your presence before the world existed. I have made your name known to those whom you gave me from the world. They were yours, and you gave them to me, and they have kept your word.

— John 17:4-6

For many years, I practiced my faith on my own, thinking I’d be just fine without attending church. I was in my thirties when I realized my isolation was not working. I was in exactly the same place in my spiritual growth as I had been when I stopped attending church. I realized I needed community. When I began attending church regularly, my faith started growing by leaps and bounds. I grew even closer to God after joining a religious community where we all help each other along the road to our home with God.

In this passage from the Gospel of John, the disciples witness the Son praying to the Father, asking God to glorify him “with the glory that I had in your presence before the world existed.” The prayer is part of the Farewell Discourse, and it occurs after the Last Supper, the night before the crucifixion.

In praying to God, Jesus shows us that he and the Father are one, but they are also part of a relationship between the coequal and coeternal persons of the Trinity. Jesus’ human nature calls upon his divine nature and reveals a truth that is difficult for human minds to comprehend: One God and yet three distinct persons.

Jesus also shows us how we should pray. He is fully divine but also fully human, so he needs to ask God for strength just as we do. And he prays in community, just as we should.

Reflect: How has your faith community helped deepen your connection with God?

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ASH WEDNESDAY, February 18

The Pharisee, standing by himself, was praying thus, “God, I thank you that I am not like other people: thieves, rogues, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give a tenth of all my income.” But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even look up to heaven, but was beating his breast and saying, “God, be merciful to me, a sinner!”

— Luke 18:11-13

The season of Lent can be a time of giving up superficial vices, such as sugar or chocolate, but it can also be a time to take a deep dive into our own souls to determine what things are separating us from God. Modern minds often dislike the idea of grim Lenten penitence, but the practice can be compassionately reframed in our time as self improvement. The Pharisee in today’s reading sees no need for self-improvement. He believes he is righteous because he fasts twice a week and tithes faithfully. The tax collector, on the other hand, is honest with himself and admits his faults. He is in despair over the things that separate him from God because he longs to be closer to his loving Creator.

Jesus tells this parable to “some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous and regarded others with contempt” (Luke 18:9). He knew that they were being unrighteous by judging others while thinking they were above reproach. Twelve-step work refers to this type of approach as taking someone else’s inventory. Step Four instead requires a fearless and searching moral inventory of ourselves, a time for an honest and transformative examination of our own faults.

When I worked this step in Al-Anon, I was like the Pharisee, pointing out other people’s faults and congratulating myself on being so virtuous. I was soon dismayed to realize that my people-pleasing tendencies were actually dishonesty and fears that held me captive and were harming me and separating me from God. I still take inventory on a regular basis, and it humbles me when I realize how many defects of character I need to release.

Reflect: In this prayerful season of letting go, can you offer up your fears and detrimental patterns to God and ask for release?

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Lent Begins February 18

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